Lethargic & Sick. These are the results of diabetic exhaustion. What does that mean. See, I have been a type 1 diabetic for 14 years. I started on shots and found myself in and out of the hospital multiple times. Then the pump came into my life and it was a life changer. Hospitalizations are few and far between and especially inpatient stays.
So there.....everything is perfect, right? Wrong. As a diabetic, sometimes you just want to be normal. Unfortunately, my normal will never be everyone else's normal. But, that's ok. No one is really alike.
But, sometimes I'm just sick of it all. I'm tired of testing. I'm tired of hearing the pump alarm. I'm tired of giving myself a bolus at mealtime and counting calories. Welcome to diabetic exhaustion.
So, get back on the horse right? Well, with my bipolar depression, it's not always that easy. I take my meds consistently but yet, the cycle still comes and it feeds my unhealthy behaviors.
For 2 months, I have been in a state of exhaustion. While I haven't completely given up, I have personally struggled to stay on the horse. What have I learned.....self damaging doesn't feel that great.
So, how do I handle the exhaustion and get back on my feet. I talk to my support system. First, I called my sister who is always there to give me the right step. Next, I emailed Lindi, my diabetic friend and just vented. Sometimes, you just need someone that has been there or is there currently. This is the advice she said her mom gave her. "Hey, We've got this. It's ok, it's a pain, but we can handle it. It's what we have to do. And everyone has SOMETHING that they have to deal with. This is ours"
What a great way to look at it. We don't know the struggles others are going through. What we do know is that it's selfish to believe that you are the only one with them.
So, as I close. I am going to try my best. That's all I can do is keep trying and not give up. I know I can overcome this obstacle. I've done many things before that I am proud of and this is just another hurdle to jump.
Thanks for listening. Take care and God Bless!
