In life, we all have choices to make. We all have decisions to make. All of these choices and decisions begin to build us. They shape who we are. Sometimes with decisions, comes overwhelming joy. Those decisions of having a baby, becoming a newlywed, starting a new job. But sometimes, our decisions, are not always positive. We all have skeletons.
As a child, I always thought you had to hide everything different about you to "fit in" Unfortunately, hiding didn't fix the problem I felt. I felt alone.
I felt alone because inside I didn't believe I was worthy of other's acceptance. But, those inner thoughts start a bad spiral.
The truth is that if you don't begin to learn who you are to yourself and in God's eyes.....all of who you are, the spiral will continue.
As an adult, I still get stuck in the spiral but am getting better. I have always had a strong faith but didn't know what that really meant for me. So, I have always been searching. Searching for a group of people I can connect with. I have looked in parenting groups, work groups, churches, and sometimes even in friends and family. Yet, so often, I would come up empty handed.
I couldn't figure it out. Well, recently, I have came to a realization. I was looking for something I had to find inside first. Love and acceptance. Everywhere I was searching was empty. People were not always authentic.
What I've learned through it all is that you have to be genuine and authentic to receive that. While this is an everyday battle for me to be real, I've come a long way baby!
And with all the distance I've travelled I'm happy to say that I'm beginning to find my "people" I have a great best friend. Some great relationships with family members. And I finally found a wonderful church group full of imperfect people just like I am. And you know what? We are all ok. Normal even.
Today I just want to encourage everyone, don't worry about fitting in and worry about filling in. Fill in your insides with faith and love and look out world....here you come!
So today as I close, I will add a picture of a group of "Normal" People, my church group. Thanks to everyone in my life who have built me up and understood in all the times of my life. Take care and God Bless!
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