Sunday, May 31, 2020

All or Nothing?

Hello faithful followers.  I’m writing in the midst of a unique time of isolation.  We are in the middle of a pandemic due to Coronavirus/Covid-19.  I have not worked at my office since March 19.  Very surreal.  Yet, I am very grateful for having the opportunity to work from home and still maintain my job.  Others are not so lucky.

So what is my topic for today?  All or nothing....what does that mean?  Time for a trip inside the mind of Julie....WOO HOOO! Ok, so in the past let’s say 43 years, I’ve found myself in an all or nothing mindset.  I hate it.  But, it’s real.  I know I’m not alone in this.

For the past week, I have been helping to run a fitness/nutrition group on facebook ran by my Beachbody coach.  Now, for those of you that know me, posting about my life is not exactly in my comfort zone.  But, Shannon encouraged me that I could do it.  And you know what, I could and did.

So, here’s my social anxiety in full bloom and yet I set a goal and did it.  So, today was my final post for the group.  Here is what I posted....Ok all, raise your hand if you’re an all or nothing thinker.  C’mon tell me I’m not alone.. So, I’ve been thinking this last week about goals.  My sister and I talk frequently about taking one baby step and mastering it before moving on.  So, what is it?  What is your one goal?  When would you like to achieve it by?  True confession time.  I’m a soda addict.  I don’t keep it at home, but out to dinner or grabbing food, it’s there in my face.  And yes, it’s real soda.  Not diet, not zeron.  100% pure junk.  So, that’s my goal.  I want to eliminate it for the next month.  Now tag, you’re it.

There you have it.  All the time, when stuck in my own mind, I think of 10-15 things I’m determined to change about myself.  ALL AT ONE TIME!

HMM....I can’t figure out why i feel like I fail all the time.  Oh wait, cuz I set myself up for it.

So, why am I writing this?  To offer grace.  To offer grace to others and to myself.  To learn that it’s ok to not change/fix everything at one time.  It’s a tough lesson for me, but very necessary at the same time.  So, please join me in my journey of faith and grace.  Love yourself for who you are.  Set reasonable goals one at a time.  Don’t think that all is wrong with you and your life.  Take it from me, it gets you nowhere.

Thanks for all the love and constant support.  Take care and God bless!

2 comments:

Mom & Pop said...

Ok..I understand where you come from. I myself started the Type 2 diabetes journey last summer. I decided that I could handle this with no problem at all. I'm of the thought that I am ok I am not a Type 1 and I can eat anything I want. Well it started the more I thought about it the more I ate the sweets. Then I feel so guilty about it I would go in the kitchen and eat some more. I could not control the eating. I felt it just calling my name. My husband Julian is not like that at all. If his dr says you need to watch your sugar intake, he won't touch the stuff and me I am not that way. The more that is said about it the more I want to eat it. I'm an all or nothing kinda girl.

I myself started with lots of pop even it was diet, I would put one in my shakes in the morning and say well I don't want to put the rest in fridge. I'd drink it. Then for lunch, supper and finally I began to have medical issues from drinking so much pop. I thought o.k I will drink a 12oz pop then 12 oz water. As if that would be done... Nope, so I got to feeling really bad and decided maybe I better drink water for a while. I started and then I just stopped buying the pop. I know the virus is a lot of the cause. With the two of us being susceptible to not do well with the virus I started ordering my groceries. Didn't order it in my groceries, so now I just drink water. Feel better. My all or nothing is in my crafting. If I buy something then it doesn't work like I thought then in stead of going ahead and using it I will get the right one. I need to have everything that goes with the craft. If I buy yarn and then don't like the color, I will store it and get a different color. So it is hard to change old habits. I myself would like to lose some weight. At one time I lost 95 lbs and could do it again, but I'm my own worst enemy. I say it and really mean it and not do it.

I admire you for doing this. You will do it. You have enough of your mom and dad in you to stick with it. I have all my faith in you and everything you do. Love you Mom

Julian Caldwell said...

Great post Julie. Hang in there.

Mom, hang in there as well!

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